CHAOS IS A LADDER.

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Written By Diana Vitantonio
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For as long as I can remember, I have had a hard time focusing. Sitting still and staying “in my body” never came easy to me. I have learned, and I have learned well, that in order to focus on something I need my body to be involved. We all do. When I was 21, I turned to yoga. It wasn’t easy but I kept showing up and over time I noticed that I had moments in class where I found myself completely still and without struggle. Not only that, it felt amazing. It felt like peace.

I found a pattern of what happened to get me there and I paid attention to that pattern. What got me there every time is when I touched  a part of me on the inside that I haven’t touched before. I tapped into the mystery inside myself and I went to a place where I felt afraid. The most beautiful things are on the other side of fear. When I arrived inside that fear, I focused on the chaos that came with it. My heart was pounding. My breath was wild and integrated. All parts of me showed up. Chaos does that. Chaos often equals change. It makes us pay attention. It’s mysterious and therefore it asks us show up.  

I practice every single day and I find it challenging  every day, but the underlying theme isn’t that it’s challenging or that it’s hard. It’s love. I have learned how to love myself enough to stay. These days I meditate every single day. I love myself for it.  I just do.

These lessons remind me of my ex-husband. He’s a brilliant man who was diagnosed with ADD and was told he was dyslexic. This diagnosis made him believe that he was incapable of focusing on anything. As a result, he never read a book all the way through until he spent two years in prison where he was forced to re-examine the stories he had believed to be true about himself. During those two years of solitude, he read over 50 books. Some of them were over 1,000 pages long. To me, he is a beautiful example of this same truth.

Chaos is a ladder you can climb towards wholeness.

Focus is not a gift you are born with, it’s a skill.

xo,

Diana 

 

 

Diana Vitantonio

My name is Diana Vitantonio and I am a Self Esteem coach for women. Nothing lights my heart up more than witnessing another woman empower, heal and forgive herself so that she can begin to value herself in every decision she makes. This is a BIG DEAL. It seems easy but this is the deep and hard work of diving into your interior and all the parts of yourself that you don’t know that well yet. This is how I believe you truly love yourself.

For most of my life I have been able to act confident but I haven’t always had self esteem. To me, confidence is what it looks like on the outside. Self esteem is what it is on the inside. Self esteem is found in our patterns, not a single moment. It’s what we believe about ourselves and what we do over and over again. Self Love for most people takes unlearning and relearning. I teach people how to listen to their intuition, how to manage their thoughts, how to emotionally process, re-learning communication skills , how to find clarity on their wants and needs, and how to be successful in communicating and respecting boundaries.

https://www.dianavitantonio.com
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